confessions of a slacker blogger
So, this is the thing. I blog for Jill. At least, that's how it started. So, now that Jill has all these new blogs to read and 15 people or more each day commenting on her blog, I haven't felt the need to post or comment. She will think that is SO lame. But, it really has been one of my reasons for not blogging!
Another reason I haven't been blogging is that I feel overwhelmed by how many wonderful people are blogging and developing friendships and sharing mail and supporting each other... and I just don't have the time to read them all! I want to. You all speak so highly of each other but, despite your fabulous qualities, I find myself screaming, "Do you people have nothing more to do?!!" And then I feel terrible for saying such a thing. It's kind of torture. And I hate thinking about the lost opportunities for friendships that I can't find the time to develop.
But, then I thought about how much I love to read my mom's blog. Her posts are thoughtful and reflective. She shares simple wisdom. And I have learned things I never knew about her. Blogging has given me the chance to hear my mother's story and my life has been enriched by her words.
I'm not funny, wise or even very thoughtful in my blogs. But, I am sad to think that I might miss out on hearing my own story because I didn't record it. Blogging works for me so much more than a journal and by not blogging, I have been left with a gap. There are things I can't go back and recapture now. So, today I want to blog. I want to blog for me. I am grateful for those of you who listen and share. Even if I don't know you as well as I'd like, I find strength, laughter and comfort in your comments. And I am grateful for Jill, who saw the brilliance of blogging long before I did and got me started. Today, I can honestly say HAPPY BLOGGING!!
Another reason I haven't been blogging is that I feel overwhelmed by how many wonderful people are blogging and developing friendships and sharing mail and supporting each other... and I just don't have the time to read them all! I want to. You all speak so highly of each other but, despite your fabulous qualities, I find myself screaming, "Do you people have nothing more to do?!!" And then I feel terrible for saying such a thing. It's kind of torture. And I hate thinking about the lost opportunities for friendships that I can't find the time to develop.
But, then I thought about how much I love to read my mom's blog. Her posts are thoughtful and reflective. She shares simple wisdom. And I have learned things I never knew about her. Blogging has given me the chance to hear my mother's story and my life has been enriched by her words.
I'm not funny, wise or even very thoughtful in my blogs. But, I am sad to think that I might miss out on hearing my own story because I didn't record it. Blogging works for me so much more than a journal and by not blogging, I have been left with a gap. There are things I can't go back and recapture now. So, today I want to blog. I want to blog for me. I am grateful for those of you who listen and share. Even if I don't know you as well as I'd like, I find strength, laughter and comfort in your comments. And I am grateful for Jill, who saw the brilliance of blogging long before I did and got me started. Today, I can honestly say HAPPY BLOGGING!!
posted by jenn | 9/29/2006
11 Comments:
OH jenn I hear you! I wish I could blog as often as Jill does, but then again, I don't do it because I just don't put it as a priority. I often think I don't want to put every day things because I really don't have that much to say...on the other hand I think maybe "ideas or thoughts" that come to mind should be bloged about, but the reality of it all, is that it is mainly for oneself...it is wonderful to get comments and it kind of creates a feeling of "being remembered, getting mail sort of thing" and it is exciting...nevertheless it will be memories, cherished memories of the 21st century...and so true...if you didn't blog about it when it happend chances are it will be lost or forgotten! So thank you for your post! and by the way who is your mum? How cool that you have that gift to read..."funny my dad writes us word documents here and there of thoughts that he has...and my brother created a blog for him to put these on...he still sends us the word document and my brother just posts it for him!
ohhhh I forgot to mention that yes, this wonderful world of blogging has created many "friendships" that I cherish and will one day like to meet all of them! and the neatess thing is that we all understand eachother and go through similar experiences on top of having spirituality as a common denominator
I am right there with you. I feel this whole blog community is fabulous, but also feel it can be very overwelming to keep up. I have tried from the beginning to just take it at my own pace and blog about the things I want to remember in my life instead of thinking about the readers. That is probably bad practice, but really my blog is for me...and really it's not that I get scads of comments anyway. I'm not even sure how many people read mine.
I also agree with Claudia. Blogging has really help me to see we are all in the same boat and are going throught the same stuff. That alone has help me tremendously in motherhood life.
Your post really echos my thoughts lately. I really try to make it for me and have found lately how good I feel when I go back and read this or that and realize some of the little moments in life that would have been lost in all the other memories.
When I have read my mom's or grandma's old journals, it is the everyday-ness of them that I can't get enough of and where I learn the most. I wish my grandma would have had time to keep writing through all 12 of her kids, but there is a big gap and I have so many questions! Like Amy said- it is comforting to know that we are not in this motherhood boat alone sometimes, even if it is only the everyday things that connect us.
The myriad of blogs out there can be overwhelming though- have to agree with you on that one. Luckily it is not something that we have to do- read the masses. I read when I can. I read yours because I would like to know you better. I forget sometimes that you live here and I wasn't able to meet you at the shindig back in June.
Yay! I'm so happy that you posted. By all means, don't blog for Jill, blog for you! I can't post every day, and I can't read everyone's blog, but I love having this record of what's going on in my life. I don't journal, so this is as good as it gets.
I always love your posts, I love feeling like we're in touch even when we don't see each other very often. I always feel like I know you a bit better. So, please, blog on!
I blog for me, and for my daughters, when I have time and when I feel like it. I don't have time or energy for more than that.
I too love other's blogs, especially my daughters. As we said from the beginning, any blog at all puts us closer in touch with the thoughts, feelings and activities of each other. But it's also a good opportunity not only to record our lives, but to give words and expression to them, to give them form and meaning.
Everything is better when you do it because you want to. As for us, we are happy for anything we get. Your blog made me very happy. I love you.
ok, no one is going to like this but i do blog for me, but i do blog for others.
one time a girl in my ward told me that i am selfish with my talents. that was worse then the girl who told me i have big calves. it has been a killer to me and it was 1 year and a half ago and it still haunts me.
so i guess i have always thought of me being one who shares and blogging lets me feel like i am sharing what i know.
so a little for me and a little for others.
Jenn, I don't care why you blog, I'm just glad that you're posting again!
I'm tempted to say that I blog for myself, but when I really think about it I consider my audience much more than would qaulify me for that. I'm also way too dependent on receiving comments. It's like validation of some sort. But whatever the reason is, the byproduct is that I have a mostly consistent reocrd of my thoughts and actions. It's pretty amazing, really, when you think of it. We're all girls who would like to keep journals, who have all struggled with journals, and now that we have a nice public forum we have no problem. Maybe that's the problem with writing journals for women--too individual, not enough community.
I'm kind of speechless. I'm not sure if I should be offended by this post or not. Pretty much I don't understand why the number of comments I get has anything to do with whether you post a comment or not. That makes me sad to think that you're frustrated, irritated or overwhelmed by blogging. I always thought you just did the best you could do and were just extremely busy. It never occurred to me you might be boycotting or upset. I'm glad you've decided to blog for you and know you will love having your days documented.
I've read a little about the amazing friends Jill has made through blogging, and I think that's really wonderful. But I don't read all of those blogs, I read yours! I read five blogs (yours, Kathryn's, Angela's, Mom's and Jill's), and regular readership of mine is six people at best (just add Scott to the list). From that list I'm sure you can tell if you don't blog, there's often not a whole lot to read! I don't blog to make new friends. I blog to try to keep my family updated with my life, and I read blogs so I can feel more connected to my family. Don't be overwhelmed by Jill's experience. Just remember you have a sister who lives a thousand miles away who looks forward to and LOVES your posts!
You all are one up on me, I don't even have a blog, so no one has the chance to get to know me and I have no place to post about my successes and struggles and no way to connect with others other than thru my peeping tom comments. Thanks for endulging me.
I enjoy reading peoples blogs and the strange thing is I only know 3 of you out there but feel connected to so many more.
Jenn, you may not think that you're funny or wise and yet I laugh when I read your blog and your comments cause me to stop and ponder. You touch and affect more than you realize and for that I thank you.
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